

I feel like I’m moving to the rhythm of your graceĪt the end of the song, he came over and introduced himself. Several years ago, the founder of IHOP, Mike Bickle, created a list of seven ways to recognize the difference between a religious community and a cult. Looking in from the outside, we both saw the group differently than we had when we were part of it: We saw it as a cult. In February, I had been formally excommunicated, and Hannah had left in June. I had felt like she would always be part of my life.įor three weeks, Hannah and I had been trying to contact leaders at IHOP about a prayer group that we, Bethany, and many of our friends had been part of-a small, independent community that drew on IHOP’s teachings. She was 27, newly married she had just completed her nursing degree. For seven years, I had spent hours every day with Bethany, eating and talking and praying. “Bethany Leidlein committed suicide on Tuesday.” I didn’t want to tell you this way, but I want you to know,” she said.

“I found out something that’s truly devastating. At about 6 p.m., I got a call from my friend Hannah*. I had spent the afternoon reading in the library at an unaccredited college affiliated with the International House of Prayer, an evangelical Christian organization commonly referred to as IHOP ( no relation to the restaurant). November 2, 2012, was a beautiful Friday in Kansas City-clear and cool and sunny.
